Life seems silly.
Life is full of stupid and funny things and you just have to do them. The most funny of them is living. But today as I laugh at the silliness of life, I also feel that she (life) has not received appropriate amount of love from me that she probably deserves. Like an infant she demands attention and if not given she screams. All the sadness and obstacles are just her screams. It’s her way of demanding attention. She, like every human is insecure. There are times, mostly when I fall in love or make a new friend, I end up spending more time with him/her and not care much about life. That’s when I go wrong, that’s when life hits me. Jerking me strongly to wake me up. And if I still be ignorant, she being the queen rule me by snatching that person from me. By now I have understood that when a person leaves me it’s an alarm to be more attentive and careful about life. So now when someone leaves me, I don’t cry. I just give life the attention she demands and wait for moments ahead of me. Incredible moments that can help me forget about every bad second/hour/day/year. Moments that can act like deep breaths, a remedy of ever bit of pain that holds me down. Moments that will smile back at me on bad days and laugh with me on good ones. Moments like sun, grand and bright. Life is beautiful and insecure. She deserves attention. Neither too much, nor too little. Just an appropriate amount of it.
27 May 2018.